Saturday, July 8, 2017

So goes the World

Humanity is 'seeing' and 'hearing' according to their desires (lust of flesh, lust of eye, pride of life) as well as the wounds that are imprinted on the soul. For example, in dealing with a person who has mental hindrances due to age, I have noticed that this person says a situation is a certain way when it is obvious that that is NOT the case. This person takes the conversations that are being brought forth and weaves them to fit their own needs - the need to feel superior, the need to be seen as a victim. Even though this person is mentally incapacitated, their condition is an object lesson of how the world is in general - seeing they do not see, hearing they do not hear.  We ALL have this tendency but as we renew our mind, as we come vulnerably before the Lord and seek healing of our inner man, we can begin to see/hear in truth which is reality.

In looking at this person, one can see what the end (fruit) would be of the sort of life that  has been lived. in the manner that this person has lived  A life of self indulgence, when they had been called to temperance, a life of bitterness and anger when they had been called to forgiveness and mercy, a life of physically not hearing well, reflecting spiritual deafness, a life of physically not seeing well reflecting spiritual blindness, a life riddled with fears when they had been called to faith and trust, a life of solitude and loneliness when they had been called to transparency and giving of self to others, a life with open access to tormenting from the evil one, when they were called to life in victory as an overcomer.

Friday, May 19, 2017


To eat the manna that is Christ is to receive all that He is. It is hard to be satisfied with Manna/Christ when our natural bodies and flesh nature has been overfed and allowed to exert itself with no restraint.

 This unrestrained nature is common to all so an intentional effort must be made to  curtail
natural inclinations 

Inclinations towards stubborn/stiff neckedness, ruthlessness, complaining, unsatisfaction, control, and anything else that does not look like the meek and lowly heart of Christ must be weeded out.

Externally, we can see our overfed bodies, weak minds, cluttered and/or overstuffed surroundings give testament to a disposition inclined towards indulgent, worldly excess.

Once we began to 'keep our body under and put it in subjection'' as was Pauls habit, we can begin
to delight in the Manna. It becomes our source and not the drawings of the flesh or this world. 

We have a greater chance at being an overcomer when we turn down the incessant volume and
neediness that our flesh and the world pour our way.

We "eat his flesh" by doing His will. Jesus said He lived by the Father and we are to live by Him. How did Jesus live by the Father? By doing the Father's commandments which were the Father's will. 

Jesus didn't literally eat the Father! It is symbolic language showing that He was ONE with the Father; whatever you eat becomes ONE with you. It is the same as abiding.

Many of us in the world have eaten at the altar of the world and altar of the flesh for so long that our spiritual senses are dulled beyond recognition. We partake of, eat, obey, and abide in the the dictates of the world and the flesh in how we navigate this life. It seems natural - and it is! But as called out ones we have a new Master to obey and we are now called to live above what is natural in this realm - super natural - no longer to live as mere men and women. This is how we can become overcomers. Help me Lord! Remove the veil from my eyes! Help me to allow your life to manifest through me as a faithful Bride that I may overcome my flesh and this world. 

Monday, January 2, 2017

As a Woman

In my 'thinking unto the Lord', I was pondering the role that women play in this natural realm. I thought about how a female 'program', if you will, has been plugged into my soul so that all my interactions in this natural realm can't help but be processed through the lens of the feminine. My 'spirit' is genderless and when I leave this mortal body, I won't be under the influence of the hormonal and flesh generated impulses of the feminine nature. But for now, I am assigned the role of a woman to carry out the object lesson both here in this realm and as a witness to the spiritual realm of Heavenly Father's purposes for this earth.

1 Peter 3:4 says that the inward heart character of gentleness and quietness/peacefulness are greatly valued by the Father. And these good qualities in the hidden, inner intentions of either gender is well pleasing to the Father. All persons that don't obey the Holy Spirit's influence tend towards harshness and the stirring up of strife.

Women would do well to focus on how the Father desires to develop these blessed qualities inwardly while not being overly focused on their external appearance.

Monday, December 26, 2016


I was thinking about the barren women of the bible. The women of promise had no natural children of their own. It took the intervention of the Father to bring forth the children. I thought of how this is fitting for the people of God as a whole. Of ourselves we can do nothing. It takes the move of God upon us to bring forth fruit. A flurry of activity that results in what we believe are productive results may only be a 'Leah' having lots of children.
Help us (me) be patient and wait upon your movement upon me, oh Lord, that I may bear the fruit of Your will, in your time.

Monday, June 20, 2016

Blessings or Cursings 2

What man looks on as important is not so with God. If that's the case, wouldn't it stand to reason that the things we consider blessings could very well be cursings? Neither His ways nor His thoughts are like ours. Could it not be that we are condemning our souls to leanness when we want, and want and want and then we receive but aren't truly satisfied? And then we 'want' some more. 

This doesn't seem right. Who doesn't want health, comfort, our choice of foods, fun times, good relationships with family and friends, the ability to pursue our own interests, when, where and how we want to pursue them and whatever else our souls can desire. I'm not talking about obviously sinful behaviors or desires. I am talking about those things that all humanity craves, from the richest to the poorest, the youngest to the oldest. Is the Father against these things?

How do we reconcile this with pursing His Kingdom first? Are we content with the fact that our lives our no longer our own but that we are to live to service of Another? If that means that our lives don't fall in line with that majority 'craving' that I spoke about, then do we receive it or feel we are being short changed?  Do we try to fanagle our lives so that we can still get our way yet say we are pursuing the Kingdom? 

I want my constant prayer to be "if this be Your Will, Lord", "if this be Your Will, Lord", "if this be Your Will, Lord"...

And then having the ear to hear,' Yes daughter', or 'No daughter'.

I don't want to desire anything more or anything different than what the Father's Will is.

Money comes and goes; our health is often dependent on our OWN discipline or lack thereof; comfort is subjective and we can learn to be flexible in circumstances that less motivated individuals would find unbearable; fun time is subjective and can be a robber of  God's purposes in our lives; good relationships often mean, having other people around us to entertain us, agree with us, listen to us complain, or meet our needs - self centeredness prevents us from really developing relationships that function as iron sharpening iron; pursing our own interests can be another robber of God's purposes in our lives - if we are living in the Sabbath,and  we 'turn away our foot and from doing our pleasure on His Holy day" Isa. 58:13. We are called to follow the example of Christ and only do what we see the Father doing, and saying what we hear the Father is saying. 

I believe that we as humans, myself included, don't realize how much of the world, flesh and inspiration from the evil one is affecting how we live this life.

And I don't want that anymore.

Help me Lord Jesus.

Blessings or Curses

We have received of the Lord, particularly hear in the West and specifically here in America, an abundance of material blessings. Even what we consider the poorest of us here are given the ability through a multitude of charitable outreach services, places to lay our head, clothes to wear, food and drink, transportation and places to clean our clothes and ourselves. But these minimum necessities are far exceeded by a good portion of our population with the continued  desire to go even farther in the accumulation of goods, services and entertainments.  The Lord has told us in Matthew that we can not serve God and mammon. Our goal of the Kingdom has to be our priority over pursuing the American Dream. The organized expression of the church often encourages this material pursuit, saying that God desires us to be blessed. But being the slaves to the flesh that we are, we become like the Children of Israel; we take the gold the Father has allowed the world to bestow upon us and we make Him over in OUR image - a God that will allow us to indulge our flesh and then 'rise up to play'
And they rose up early on the morrow, and offered burnt offerings, and brought peace offerings; and the people sat down to eat and to drink, and rose up to play. Exodus 32:6 KJV
There is a comparison between how the flesh minded Children of Israel handled their possessions and how the Father desired to use them:
 And the LORD spake unto Moses, saying, 2Speak unto the children of Israel, that they bring me an offering: of every man that giveth it willingly with his heart ye shall take my offering. 3And this is the offering which ye shall take of them; gold, and silver, and brass, 4And blue, and purple, and scarlet, and fine linen, and goats' hair5And rams' skins dyed red, and badgers' skins, and shittim wood, 6Oil for the light, spices for anointing oil, and for sweet incense, 7Onyx stones, and stones to be set in the ephod, and in the breastplate. 8And let them make me a sanctuary; that I may dwell among them. 9According to all that I shew thee, after the pattern of the tabernacle, and the pattern of all the instruments thereof, even so shall ye make it. Exodus 25:1-9 KJV
I highlghted in red an important part - what they had received from Egypt/the world was to be offered to the Father to build an habitation.

Saturday, June 4, 2016

Cain Coming to Terms

 "They went astray in their hearts because they didn't know the ways of the Lord. They didn't come to His terms. As a result they were prevented from entering into His rest.
We do the same thing. We see and experience the power of God. We walk in His provision and protection. And yet our hearts maintain our own ways instead of changing and conforming to His ways. We want to receive all of the benefits of the Lord on our own terms. If we think that the Lord will allow this as we mature then we are sadly mistaken."

This was a quote from Art Nelson's monthly email newsletter titled "Coming to Terms". This seems to correspond to my thoughts about being Cain and how Cain (me) wanted to come to God in the way Cain himself wanted to come regardless of God's requirements. I need to write 100 times on a chalkboard "Jehova is Lord, Jehova is Lord, Jehova is Lord..." 
My thinking has been so corrupted by the flesh and this world's system that I feel MY ways are so good and right and just that the Father should just co-sign on everything I do, say and want. But, as bro. Art says, 'we (I) are sadly mistaken".
When I was thinking on the fact of God being God and His ways not being my ways, I thought about how there is nothing I can say, no credible debate I can present to convince Him my way is the way things should be), all I can do is worship Him. Worship the One who does what He does according to His own good pleasure. I am too small minded, immature, seeing nothing but veil to offer any valid rebuttal to anything that occurs to me or anyone else. I don't know if me or another person is reaping something from years previous, if the person or me was allowed to have a request that the Father didn't want them to have and now leaness has entered the soul, if a circumstance is the result of our decaying,cursed world, if the evil one is being allowed to sift me/someone else - or WHAT the problem is. Well, this isn't completely true - we can ask for wisdom and understanding and often the Father will lead us to the wellspring from which the circumstance was born. Many times though, it still passes our comprehension and even though well meaning Job-ian friends may try to give an answer, we still are left in the dark as to what in the world is going on.
"Father, help me to receive You and Your ways without complaint, without doubt. Let me truly enter your rest as I learn of Your ways and stop going astray in my heart. I love you and thank you. Please forgive me and continue to deal with me as You see fit. Amen"